It's very dark today, I'm falling and I'm really struggling. It's been such a long time since I've had dark thoughts the feelings are so strong. I dont know if I can stop myself from hurting myself to make the dark go away. I'm trying so hard. Anxiety is fucking horrible and I wish it would leave me alone just so I can function live without fear without the thoughts that everything I do say is wrong. I've had enough shit in my life I can't take anymore!!