[Crimson]

hello everyone,

i had my long awaited appointment with a new psych. today. she upped my clonazepam (from .5mg 2xa day) to 1 mg twice a day, and my celexa from 40mg to 60 once a day. not sure how i feel about this, just know that i am seriously depressed and i had a MAJOR panic attack while picking up the meds at the store today, and in the waiting room before seeing the doc.
but good news is she is a lovely doctor and i don't think i will miss my old one.

any advice on where to go from here?
much love to you all xx

[Songbird]

I'm pleased to hear she is a lovely doctor! I hope she does well at helping you. Did you let her know you're uncertainty about the upping of the meds?

[Crimson]

No, love, I just sat there and nodded through tears because I honestly just needed her to do something, and I didn't want her to neccesarily change the meds completely because I react terribly to most medications. I have been on at least 8 different concotions, one which led me to the ER (rare "deathly" reaction to Lamictal, though I don't believe I was even close to death lol ). Anyways, she wants me to go back to Intensive Outpatient Therapy (4x a week for 4 hours a day). Intense describes it perfectly. The last time I tried to start back up again I panicked and had to leave the room. But I suppose I will give it a go, I just want to follow her lead completely as that is how lost I am.

Ramble, ramble.


Just very, very lost and scared right now...I'm scaring myself.

[Songbird]

That intensive therapy does sound very intensive! It must seem very scary, but think how much help it could do. I'm so pleased you've been listened to and given appropriate help. Will the therapy be about anything, i.e can they help with they ED?